Tuesday, May 23, 2006
7:13 AM
do u tink my life now is heppi?
well....
yea....
im heppi...
even ive lost u...
i still hab my fwen...
by my side...
but most of all...
my father...N my mother....
i wish to ferget u...
to hate u..
but to kiss all the sweet memories....
but then...
my love towrds u is fading...
but i miss u stronger....
luving miie ;
*****
Thursday, May 11, 2006
6:35 AM
Duhai Kekasihku...
Hidupku ibarat pelita yg menyala
setelah kau tiba menghadir
sangkaanku ternyata salah
susah utkku terima hakikat dan takdir..
Aku mungkin masih kental pakaian
tetapi tk dpt aku nafikan
kematangan telah menghantui fikiran
yg gagal membuat aku terkapai-kapai meminta bantuan..
Pabila aku bersendirian
Jiwa aku dihantui kerinduan..kegelisahan
menunggu panggilan darimu
akhirnya kau menjawab seruanku..
Getaran telefon ku lambangkan hatiku
apabila aku berjaya mengetahui segalanya
tak ku sangka kau sanggup memperdayakan kerpercayaanku
tetapi dengan kerelaan hati..kau menafikannya..
Susah untuk aku terima
sukar lagi untuk aku percayakan ungkapanmu
berkobar-kobar ingin kau usaikan segalanya
akhirnya hilang keraguan di hatiku..
Tangisan air jernihku
banyak mengalir untukmu
menandakan kesaksian cintaku
kau pun begitu ketika kita bertemu..
Wajahku yang dibasahi manik mataku
telah kau hapuskan
dengan jari jemarimu...
Aku memberikan jawapanku
Lalu aku bangkit dan menghadiahkanmu
sekuntum cumbuan yang terakhir
dan aku berangkat untuk berlalu
membuka tapak baru
membina lambaian terakhir pertemuan kita...
Namun, aku berjalan dan berhenti 35 tapak
Dari tempat itu lalu ke sudut lain
Hatiku masih memberontak
apakah itu jawapan ku yg muktamad..
Ingin aku bertoleh melihat matamu yg aku ketahui akan mengalir
mengalirkan airmata saksi cintamu
Tetapi jua aku tidak sanggup meninggalimu,sayang..
Walaupun akulah yang membuat ucapan itu kerana masa depan kita
aku tetap menyesali atas apa yang telah berlaku
tetapi sayang aku harus meninggalimu...
Walaupun aku masih di situ
Aku masih menantikan kedatanganmu
Menghampiriku untuk memujuk aku
melembutkan hatiku...
Kau tetap menyambut seruan hatiku
kau tiba di hadapanku
Dan seribu patah dua harus kita langsaikan..
Sesepilunya....lahirlah air mata jernih dari matamu
yang selalu ku lihat bersinar...
dan kini telah dibasahi hujan matamu sendiri...
Air itu telah ku usapkan
dan kini tak ingin aku ia kembali lagi sayang...
Kerna tak aku sanggup melihat dikau menangis...
Kerana aku masih dan amat menyayangimu...
Lalu aku harus pergi...
meninggalimu...
meninggali memori kita berdua...
dan segalanya.....wahai kekasihku....
********............*******
saYanGku....
luving miie ;
*****
2:48 AM
kalbu indah menusuk di hati
tersentuh rasa di sanubari
minda merayau-rayau mencari erti
bagi setiap belakunya sebuah realiti....
awan menjanjikan turunya badai
matahari janjikan sinaran mentari
takku sangka janji yang kau usaikan
terbang melayang tanpa tujuan...
harapanku hancur leluh
setelah aku ketahui segalanya
hatiku remuk dgn tiba-tiba
bagaikan ombak jatuh ke tanah...
tak dpt ku nafikan betapa indahnya hari itu
ketika kita ddk bersama..bermesra..
terimbas kembali waktu itu
kau mengucapkan kalimah syahdu..
bkn tersentuh sahaja hatiku
malah aku keliru
entah harus percaya
setiap perkataan yang kau ucapkan...
utk mu syg...********.....
luving miie ;
*****
Monday, May 01, 2006
12:58 AM
29 April 2006
It is his bdae...on e previous dae...we quarrelled on e pon...but then i tried to sort tings out wif him at 12 midnight...easy...jus by saeing...happy bdae syg...den he laughed...he sae.."igt tk syg agik" means i tot u dun luv me anymre...i sae....mane blh...kalu g2 uatpe pgl u syg....den we joke...laugh....den put down e pon...at 2.30 i met him at jrng...but he tke cab...den tok tok...wad shit lar...klar...beh dier kater...k lar yok amek ur adek..dier gi madrasah kn...i sae yesh...den go fetch my sis...i was like...ok den..he sae...i blanjer u pki duit u...den i sae..i blanjer u pki duit u...den my sis ckp...kak saper blanjer?den he sae...abg blanjer pki duit kakak..den i sae..maner blh...bdae BOY blanjer kiter....den dier kater maner blh...org blanjer bdae BOY...i stressed on e wrd BOY...kk..he is nt a BOI BOI anymre yahz...hehe....at last...dier yg blanjer...mkn banquet dok....haha...den balek naek MRT...dlm MRT kekek sey...we test my sis time table and mental calculation...den i ask him..byk2 binatang binatang ape yg ckp asl....he luk at me and sae..nth...den i sae BABI...den he sae asl...kk let me stress tings out here...it means dat he sae asal..is dat he is refering to himself as the babi..haha...i laughed..he laughed...pinched my cheek den pinched my lap...haha...he laughed...squinched his eyes..do u guyz noe how cute is he....? ? ?my heart melted....lol...den he sent me hme...he sae i wait u kt tangger dpn umah...ok...i go in put my beg...tke out his present..keep insde my pocket...i walked off..den i sae..pi tingkat 10 blh?ok...den we sit...tok2...play2...den he asked...bdae present?den i sae..eeee tk malu...den he sae..nk malu ngn u buat ape...k lar...den i kua kn e bangle i bought fer him...gt his nme...he sae..y oni my nme...where's ur nme..?i sae..ouhk u wan my nme?den he sae yalar...den i sae..how i noe...den i put on e bangle for him...its a silver one...den he sae thnk u...n he kissed me...i smiled n blushed..den he sae..."i HATE you"i sae...yar 4eva..i noe....den he smiled....den we went bck...i sent him down..den go up..he asked me kol him..i was like...tadi aru jer jumper..tk jelak ker?kk lar..i kol lar...den he sae...i lov u in chinese...i sae..i luv u too in broken chinese..den he laugh....den tok tok..den put down..den do noting....
30 April 2006
A guy whum i jus nowthru the net...conffessed to me...i was shocked...damn shocked..it was like unbelievable..i mean...we nvr met..jus otp n chatting...but he sae he knew me too well..i was like wad shit..he knows im not jus an ordinary gal..but indeed he....he dun care...he gt to noe also frm my X....my x is his fwen..so he knew things frm him...den i was like touched oso hve..as he sae..he cud accept me as long as i accept him...i was like..ok but i m having sumone else yahz....kk...dats all..jus wishing we re enuff to be fwen....dats it.....
1 May 2006
HE IS AWAE TO INDONESIA!!!!MISH HIM!!!!!dun be noti n luk at indon gals huh...
luving miie ;
*****
Monday, April 17, 2006
6:28 AM
I tried everything i cud..to chg my life..to chg my wae..she saes tt i chged afta i broke up wid sumone...but is it true?or is it she was e one whum chged?alt sae im turning to b okae..to be well..i din throw my tantrum as how i like laz yr...dey sae im beginning to tern damn frenly..understnd ppl well...kk...wadeva...bt i tink she was e one chging...telling others abt my prob isnt a gd deed..u r jus trying to embarass me is wad i meant...u sae dat wid a sowie..but pls...r u trying to mke me embarass by telling others my personal prbs?i respect ur prb...so pls respect my prb and mostly my PRIVACY!!dun eva ask tme to be punctual..but ure the one whum is late...dun let me wait fer mins fer u..u r no one special..ure jus a fwen of mine..but u knew noting abt my prob now...i wun let out anyting to u..as i noe u wud tell tt to e one whum u re close wid...so im not sowie...but i regret of telling u dat....
well..i felt dat i began to develop a lttle more of tt feelings...so wis u all e besh..n lurp u..
luving miie ;
*****
Thursday, April 13, 2006
11:20 PM
Well,long time i nvr upd8...sowie to dess...hehe...k now im updating cz im truly bored...bored wif my life...
this few weeks have been a verie tough one...3 test in one dae?maths,geog,n eng....haish...studied fer maths n geog onlie..eng dunnoe wad to studie fer..tell u guys e truth i cnt concentrate alt in my test..i dunnoe if i cn do beta..my heart is truly pain...maybe one of these daes..im gonna get the attackk...fuck!!nt onlie dat..at home..alt of prob is cumming up..well i dun tink it shall be writen all ovr here..its my privacy niwaes....wen..wen will it eva stop haunting me..its realli fucking pain..my mind is full of tings..alt...its too much...n dat mkes my sickness even worst....wen i m sick...i wun b able to do PE verie well...im kinda gonna mish iit ltr..so i jus wish tt tht ting wud stop here fer once n let me carrie out wif my life....yar,even though i passed my NpCC promotion test...it doesnt brg me any happiness at all...by getting promoted doesnt mean dat im hepi fer everyting happen..wel, i m hepi n proud of myself..but i truly cnt stnd dis anymre..there too many prob surrounding me...my mind is damn so heavy....i felt as though my weight is taken ovr by my mind...ytd,my mum bdae..din bought her anyting so special..well i noe sumting dat u guys simply dunnoe...so it ink its not wrth my time writing on wad hapen ytd..jus mke it easy....its like sum other average dae...haish...til here ill write fer now...
luving miie ;
*****
Thursday, March 30, 2006
5:45 AM
todae....i feel so moody.....so SUCKY!!!dunnoe y......but i miss himm......
it happen so teribbly...now!!!!wads else is goin to happen.....!!!!!???????arrgggghhhh!!!!
thnks dess n finna....u heard me now!!!!
luving miie ;
*****
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
5:17 AM
weeiii......mie hidayah....ytd...noting much happen..so i noting to rite...its jus a basic life...laughter...n..laughter....N laughter..HAHAHA....todae....i gt e science thingy thing..nid to bcme gardener for a while...do e damn hydrponic ting for projek...nvm...wid finna....she is verie irritating...its ok..besh fwen alwaes hve tings in common...haha....did sum stupid mistke...but i clear it off..luckily....haha...went hme wid ela,finna n sania..a little bit of xtra dere....haha....(suntimes)no offence..she noes it niwaes...reach hme..he asked me call him...so i call...tok2....den laugh2....he sae dis...sae dat....so romansssss....he sae...jgn tdr lmbt..nti mater dh itam tk lawar.....haha...not suppose to be pretty but cute...haha...it means(dun slip lte ltr gt ibck not pretty animre..)den he sae...by 11 mush slip...aiyoh..u can lar..not me....i gt lots of hmwrk...still steal tme to go n play com..haHAk lar dats all abt him...NOW abt MATHS and DNT!!!so stresssss!!!gve hmwrk like we all rubbiiissshhh chute.....aiyoh...we oso wan do other revision lehz......haish....its ok.....jus do sum..den tmr COPPPPYYYYY..haha..
lurp.....u .....guyz
luving miie ;
*****
ABOUTS
Nur Hidayah Ariffin
Hidayah, Dayah, Pendek, Sambal Fishball, Monyet
Woodgrove Secondary
161192
single.....
always bubbly, cheerful, cn be irritating and MOSTLY...
I CAN BE SERIOUS WEN I RELLI HAV TO..
WISHLISTS
last long
get e fuckas out of my life
get e angels guide my life
sweet memories dat began and sweet memories dat end
live life to e fullest
anything dat mkes me hepi
