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Saturday, February 18, 2006 3:01 AM

this updates all are from my last blog.....

Ahh....at last finish editing this blog...Had this blog long time ago..now then i finish editing...dunnoe the wae arghs...ugaga..hehe...bdh nyer dayak...hehe...k this blog will b updated only on ferst on january...which marks the actually bdae of this blog..hehe... ferst ask lin to help me edit..then seems she is bz wif her's..i ask shidah to help wif it..then she sae go n see the skins of the dae e skin is nicer..so i go pick arr..actually im not fussy bout it...dun care...hehe...den shidah nvr online then i go do myself arr...read all those wrds that dun snd eng at all...shuhadah help abit...hehe....coz she cme my hse..alah our hse verie near..tke the stairs also cn reach..kk lar...dats all..

Hari ulang tahun ayah...
ayah,nie untuk ayah... original tau... kakak buat sendiri..
Azan subuh mula kedengaran,
Mengambil wudhuk untuk bersolat,
Merendahkn diri sambil menadah tangan,
Berdo'a untuk usia insan yg sdg meningkat.
Usia bukan semakin muda,
malah usia setiap insan semakin meningkat,
Ingatlah kepada yang Maha Esa,
Supaya di panjangkn umur dan diberi berkat.
Walaupun banyak halangan dan cubaan,
marilah kita sama-sama menentang,
jangan lalai akan keredhaan,
supaya kita sentiasa menentang demi keadillan.

Selamat Hari Lahir

Haish...pnat sey smlm..org nga enjoy new yr..aku kat chinatown kene keje..mk...penat sey....tk per arr at least ader kertas msuk kocek...beh balek umah sampai kul 3..sblm tu pi umah nek..pnat sih...mk bsg..beh biler tunjok poket trus senyap..haha...dh lar tk bag org pi sentoa nk uat reunion..lagie nk ckp byk..ader ke dier kater aku asek kua...biler mase sei..tk per bersbr..kalu aku tules beratus-ratus puisi tentang kesabaran ttp aku tk bersbr pun tk guner...beh tdo bangun kul 1 lebeh g2 nk msk 2 ptg..power siol...khekhe..hp lak ader 9 msg..4 miz kol..pakse aku perikser satu2...tk per lagiepun best gak...ader yg mrh2 tk rpl..pemalas haram lar pe lar..aku tk ksah bb kekadang klakar gak kalu drg bsg cm mk cik2..haha...beh dpt arr tgk citer embun seblm mandie itu pn ader kerosakkan teknikal...sedih sei..kalu lar sumer pmpn cam org dulu kn bagos...lagie2 cm embun..branie tk bertempat..jage maruah diri...cm pmpn zaman skrg ader yg sampai ngandung anak luah nikah ume..dahsyat...pastu memalukn masyarakat dn agame mlayu..tk malu ke drg bangse laen tgh maju kiter kat sini maseh kat situ...tk berlalu bergerak... ibarat kata2, org dh berjalan kita maseh merangkak..tapie yg paling sedih skali is part yg Jepun rogol org pmpn mlayu angkat anak dare yg ader seksa,dera drg..bunoh org tanper alasan..kurang ajar..lagie yg si AKISHI tu..naseb baek aku tk knal kalu knal agaknyer dh lamer aku ganti tempat dier..beh kurugawa lak bdh..sumer akishi kater dier percayer..tk mcm koishi..baek jujor..tembam..kuang3..alah pape pun..insya allah sejarah singapura tk kn jelma lagie..

haish jus gt the tme to post since the new yr......kalu tk sch...keje..kalu tk keje sch...on e ferst dae of sch..was..ok lar..noting much..not ever1 chg..only e styles..like hairs...n me..my frinch n my specs r gone..tadaa..e guys disterbs me as usual..no diff..fishball...ok ok i gt it..i noe my face is rnd..but cute aite..haha...tk malu..then sitting arrangmnts is next..we r arrange in rows of 2's and 4 rows in al..i'm i e 3rd row..horizontally nor diagonally...den coindencely i sat bsde richard left n rite muhaimin...duh!!i noe he wun tok to me..but sitting next to richard was damn fun...infrnt of us is junhoong n hazwani...dey are damn gd in maths..im poor dough..leme mind..dey cn help me..kuang3.....afta sch jus stayed bck 4 noting...den on e sec dae of sch...tme table hve begins...k lar..e teachers was ok...mdm saratha is my form teacher..ckgu azah ml..n bla bla...e hist rt was damn sux..he was bored...dunnoe how to teach or wad....wen hme lte cz gt sec 1 orientatn..rmb e daes wen ive to chose my cca's..being a npcc cadets is 1 of my target during p6...n now i'm LCP...ok lar...sec2 promotional test i hope to gt promoted to cp...hope so...during hols wen to nco cmp..not as tough as we dd imagine..but wee din gt to bath..kha...third dae...wen on.....noting muc but i din stayed bck cz promised hazwani n marlina to buy things 4 e class deco..wen hme straight...faiz msg me..telling me he liked me..he is sec 1...den i sae i dun wan to gt in2 any relatnship..guys wrds sumtimes r sweet but filled wif noting..dey sae it only wen they wan us...haish..forth dae of sch was a damn lng tiring fun unbelievable dae for me n afta all e npcc unit...sum onli...afta sch..gt np training..not likely trainin ar..but it is plan to b games dae...but e weather terns it arnd...den zul n razif 'sir' was dere...dey break e sec2 cadets in2 2 grps...grp 1 n 2..not sure wad grp but zul took e other grp n razif my grp...damn!!den we hd to do e drills n im m e timer...e rigt row mayb..my timin i tink it was loud enuff 4 e squad to hear but he sae..timer louder..i was like..how loud???den he gve e command berhenti..den he sae log ur arms..i log 4 a while den release...den he walk bhind me tinking he wun push my hnd as im a gal n he is a guy...but he dd..luckily i din fell..i was like...damn him..why he liked to disterb me?den afta np..we went out to banquet to eat..as a cca piple..on e wae dere he n fir disterb me..ok lar...i dun mind..used to it ready..den wen i was climbin e stairs, he put his leg trying to trip me...i was like ok ok...its public hidayah...naseb baek public kalu tk...dh kejar dier 1 dunier..eee...den we eat lar bla blabla..wen bck to sch evryting as per normal..dat razif mke me melatah hit shuhadah 4 noting..fir ask to pujok like e baby wae..yar as if she minds...dey r kinda irritating but fun 2 gt to noe dem..i miss dem lots...razif,'arifah n zul..dey r no longer in dat sch....hpe to keep in touch....

esok...
kesepian yg dipendam semakin mendlm, aku ketahui bahawa kau lah yg ku cintai, dn aku sedari bahawa aku tidak bersendiri, melayan hati yang mronta-ronta ingin kebebasan diri. aku hargai setiap jasa budimu, yang tk dpt ku jelaskn hanya begitu, pabila ku tanya apakah yg kekurangan di dlm dirimu, kau menjawab cinta yg menghantui diri mu utk diriku. kata manis seorang insan lelaki yg kerap kali ku dengari, menghantui diri aku yg bebas tanpa erti, tiada siapa yg mengerti hasrat di hati, melainkan Illahi yg sentiasa disisi. terimbas kembali waktu suka, terkenang kembali waktu duka, menjadi teladan utk berdiri di muka bumi, kuping yg pekak menjadi sempurna tdk semena-mena, hanya kerana cinta yg melanda.
Walaupun kta tdk pernah bertemu,
Hati ini amat menyintai dirimu,
Entah kenapa, entah mengapa,
yg ku ketahui, bkn kerna darjat atau rupa,
ttp dirimu yg bisa membuat aku cair dihantui cinta.
Haish di is simply fer...NO ONE....kuang3...

FrM 08 OF JaNuArY I DiN uPdTe uP BloG...LaZy HaF..Bz oSo hAf...dUnNoE WhIc 1...bUt e ThInG tT GerEK oNli I WiLl RyTe It HeRe..LikE lASt THurS Go JUroNg WId sHUhAdah WAN 2 TkE sUmTiNg fRm thERe...sHe ONli tEmAn Me...TaKoT tErESReMpK MeMbEr LaMer...tApIE WaD i nOe Is dAt dRg tk sLaLu Lepk tEmPaT lAMeR SiAnG hArIE...SlAlUnyEr MLM2..Tk nMpk mEmBeR lAMer tAPiE NMpk kwn lAmEr...sTaKt HiEhiE Je lAR.. aDEr yG dH MaKiN SmBnG..MklUmLaH Dh laMeR Tk JuMpEr tK bBl..SumER DGH LupER DiRi...PApE LaH..aKu tK kSAh sBb aku tAu aKu mAseH McM dLu PRAMAh...Dh amEk bENdeR akU aJaK sHuhADaH GIe gek PoH..MkN SaNer..bLi BUbBLe tEa...dLm Bas dIer mUlErLaH mEnGaDU DiEr RiNdU jUrOnG...LAGiE2 DiEr DlU SkOLah PIoNeeR prIMArY tEmpt AKU..BeH DiEr ckP Arr BpK DiEr AMeK DiER kT mANer..dH laMeR Tk JejaKkaN kAki LaR pElAr....kEciaN DiEr..yG aku sLAlU GIe SaNER kAlU bLH TK nK giE lagIe...beH balEk JuMper fInNa sHIdAh FaIrUz n bLA bla Kt VsTa nGa Mkn...hEhE..ssaMpI UmAh dLM kUL 7 lEbEh G2...nAseB bAek MK AkU tK BsG..KuAnG3... =============================== End Of ThINgs iN jUrONg... =============================== kk skrg balek lak kt wlands...18 january...afta sch...aku balek arr..kt st soccer..maser tu aku srg..kt st soccer ader bdk chr india..maen bola...aku jln jer arr buat bdh.tk kuaser nk layan..beh tetbe kt slope ader org swit..aku uat bdh..beh dier tarik aku dier kater..my fwen wan to mke fwen wf u blablabal.....beh kt vsta park..ader grp nga maen bola..mlayu..mintk lagie numba...kiwek aku mcm..siallar..aper sio...aku balek geleng kepaler sendri..haha.. i follow my mum to e sheng shiong near checkpint there..nmpk sgt aku anak paling tua..nk srh mk aku angkat brg2 dier pregnant jadie hrpkn aku jer arr..aku kn baek..ceh...brg mcm lagie berat darie sendrie sei...terpkser angkt brg tu smpi kat taxi stnd..beh apek nie aku kater..."brg us go wlnds dr 16 cn?"beh dier kater"i wait lng den wan 2 sent u onli arnd here arr?4 get it arr..1"i was like wad e hell...aku tk buat aper2 sial..aku tanyer jer per...dlm hati dh mcm Pu*kie nyer driver.maner nyer bsr jer...skalie tolak cnfem jatoh..bdh...aku tgk mk aku prenant...buter per dier?beh amek teksie yg blkng dier arr..mk aku dh ngamok nk complain...aku angkat brg arr nk letk blakang..beh tetibe mk aku tepekik aku peke aper..rupenyer dier ckp ngn apek dpn tadie..aku tedgr IDiot jer..hah...aku ckp ngn mak aku dh lar....cukop arr...beh bwk dier msk teksie..dier uat complain kat company tu lar pe lar....blablabla...ble aku tanyer asl..dier ckp apek tu tunjjok dier ButOh nyer sign..no offence ehk readers...haha....beh aku cm ehk sial arr..tau tadie aku pegie sakk....tk puas siol ngn tu tuer...tk lamer lagie cnfem mampos...haha....si-al jer ku.... disini sajer lar kalinie....kuang3...

e dae whic mkes me damn paiseh...during assmbl...a lng week pass lar actuallie...outsiders were invited to shw us dat houseware cn be mde in2 musical instruments..its fun lar...funnie oso..i enjoy mking lots of noise in e hall..haha..den dey call up 4 two teachers..mrs ram n mr ting..mr ting called two guys n mrs ram called two gal...i was like..ouh no...is she going to call me..den she called for tabitha..she cme up..one mre she called up was keneth..then keneth din cme up....so she called anoder name..e rest was like shouting..HIDAYAH!! hidayah!!...den she sae hidayah den..i was like...ouh no!!!my fwen sae go arr...then i noe tt im nt paiseh to do anyting fool..so i was like..ok be the lady of e dae...i went up...oh gosh...then e man pas me a small pail n a stick..i stood bsde amirul..then i was like argh..wad r we goin to do...den e man sae k jus follow e beat i hit e tings...k i did...den he said...its tme 4 individuals...oh no!!hw to beat sei...then my tern cme...they cheer...i tern red mann...normal i gues...den i heard...FISHBALL!!go RUN!!!hit it!!....i was hey!!dats bad....den i ask e person i hit anyhw cn or nt...den he sae of coz...anyhw...i was like ok...so i hit...den MY audience clap to e beat..khekhe....dey laughed at me...realie seii malu rabak....haish...den i walked down dey stage dey were like...chey dayah....tk nk klh sei.....hentk..tk der lag kuat ker?hehe......memory...in january 2006...kuang3....

i n finna sat near e pondok bsde my sch...den i sae k ar bla arr...dh pkl brp sak...den she sae ok...den tetbe prasan "him" potong jln..den finna kater...jln laju2 nk jumpe gal per?den he shouted, otak ko..aku maner ader gal...den finna kater baek arr dayah..ko maseh suker dier kn....aper lagie..dier tk de gal tu..den i was lke..jumping to myself arr...tis is e rite tyme...kk...i ask finna to msg him coz my pp8 low..den she ask...ko ader gal tk?den he replied..maner ader!!sembrg jek!!..(exactly)...den finna reply...wad do u tink of dayah?kalu dayah mintk patch ko nk tk?den he replied..dier lawa,baek ngn mcm2 arr..dier yg tinggalkn aku...i was like..im touched by his sec ans....den i sae..k nie dayah...(den i confez)..tell him y dis y dat...den...we sms...till i ask him...do u stll lup me?den he replied..maseh btl2....den i was like is dat an ans or ques?den he sae blg u a...den i sae..he still lup me?true ke?i din believe my eyes..den i msg....ok den...beh?........he sae i ader byk hal kt lua....i tk nk hampekn u mcm dulu..i tk nk perkare dulu terjadi lagie...den i sae...its ok..bcz of love i will wait... k fwens...he is my ferst lup....i realli lup him....truly.......

Kadangkala daku terasa
Di hidupku terlalu banyak masa
Kadangkala hatiku terasa Masa yang ada….bagaikan tiada
Telah tertulisnya
Tentang ruginya manusia
Bila bermain dengan masa
Masa dijadikan alasan….ukuran…..harapan
Diberi peluang
Diberi masa
Berbagai andaian cuba di kata
Tetapi masa tetap menjadi alasan
Diri ini bagaikan butiran pasir
Tidak berteguh diri tetapi berseparan
Menyalahi takdir atas kelemahan diri
Kelemahan yg mengakibatkan lalunya masa
Tidak ku sedari bahawa masa telah berlalu…begitu
Bukan segelintir tetapi segalanya…
Wahai manusia Fikirlah akibatnya Jika membazir masa..begitu sahaja
Hanyutlah diri dibawa arus masa……
aku tules psl nie bb kdg2 aku raser org slalu tke their tme into sumting dat is nt impt.......

luving miie ;

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